Monthly Archives: January 2008

memory lane

Nesting instinct has kicked into major overdrive.  Andy said it’s like
I’m anticipating not having anymore time for a very very very long
time…guess I am, if our baby is anything like the other 2 ๐Ÿ™‚  This
week’s project: pictures.  It’s a mess.  I think it was Jess who
commented a long time ago about what are we going to do with all the
pictures we take?  Exactly.  I’m glad we have so much of their life
documented, but it’s a bit insane.  So, I’ve been deleting a ton, but
here are some I came across–the earliest digital we have.
happy miles
there’s only one person that could make miles smile and laugh so hard…dad
if I at all look uncomfortable, I was…nothing like walking around the zoo on your due date in 100 degree heat.
and he came 5 days later…

Friday we get our 1st 3D ultrasound!!!  I’ve been counting down the
days!!!  The dr. referred us for one since Miles had a cleft palate. 
That’s nice and all, but I’m just excited to actually look at this baby
and understand what I’m seeing rather than the ultrasounds we’ve had in
the past that didn’t even look like a baby!  (Maybe that’s why they
thought Miles was supposed to be Lily…)  So, we’ll see if we get our
Lily this time! ๐Ÿ™‚


Last night, while the boys were “falling asleep,” we heard Miles telling Jack:
“I want a puppy.  Maybe when I grow up, I can have a puppy and a wife.  Jack, you could have a puppy and a wife…and maybe a kitty when you grow up.  And when I grow up, I want 20 disciples like Jesus…No, I want 100 disciples.”

Baby Edit:  I’m sitting here feeling someone very little in me moving around!  It’s amazing.  Yesterday, at my appt., the dr. was impressed with how much the baby was kicking as he was listening to the heartbeat.  I said he must know he’s got some crazy brothers to keep up with.  Cleaning out our closet today, I found some really soft pretty pink yarn.  I’m thinking about going out on a limb and knitting a girlie pink baby blanket.  I’ll probably jinx myself from having a girl…if it works that way ๐Ÿ™‚ 

Andy took this pic today, and I think it’s darling of Jack.

I don’t really know where to begin to update.  I’ve been doing a rather poor job of it lately…probably because it seems like there’s a whole lot going on, but when I try to sit down and write about it, I can’t think what it is!  Maybe it’s just life, so here’s an update on our life (well, parts of it). 
Let’s start with Chicago.  God gave us the best anniversary gift ever.  Besides 28 hours alone with my husband, it was 68 degrees in January!  We laughed so hard at the improv comedy club.  I asked several locals if it was worth it, and no one hesitated–with alum like Chris Farley, Mike Meyers, and Tina Fey, it had to be funny.  It was.  But one of my favorite things of Chicago is just walking around, popping into different shops and cafes that catch our eye. 
Baby #3
I have officially hit the I’m so excited–I can’t wait stage.  Granted, there’s a ton I want to get done before juggling 3 little ones…but I held a sweet 1 wk. old baby this week, and that did it.  I’m so ready for another one!  (Plus not being nauseous all the time helps ๐Ÿ™‚  I was walking into the grocery store with Jack today, and he was jabbering about me having a baby.  Usually he’ll talk about the baby “popping out of my tummy.”  But today, he was asking when the baby was going to “jump out of my tummy.”  It’s so cute to hear them process how this whole thing works.
Someone asked Andy how Miles was doing the other day, and he told me he couldn’t help but well up with tears.  I’m the same way.  When I think back to a year ago…or 2 years ago…or 3 years ago, things were so different.  We are SO encouraged.  A ped. neurologist told us years ago how important early intervention is, that before a child turns 5, the brain has its crucial development.   So I’ve constantly had that in mind, as far as getting treatment, that time was ticking.  But it just hit me that in 3 mos., this little guy will turn 5.  And if years ago, I’d have pictured where I’d want Miles to be when he turned 5, I would’ve never imagined him doing this well.  We still see the hardship of autism (triggered by loud noises, commotion, or people standing too close), but his personality continues to evolve with generosity, tenderness, thoughtfulness.  Tonight, as I tucked him in bed and whispered “I love you”, he whispered back “I love you too” and kissed my cheek.  I had to quickly turn away because I started crying, and I didn’t want to have to explain everything I was thinking.  I was overwhelmed at how precious it is to hear him say that.  I don’t ever want to take that for granted.  There were many months  I wanted so bad for Miles to say the words he once had said.  The other day, I found a picture book I’d made of words he’d learned…that he went a year without saying (home, banana, baby, mom, dad).  And today, he was telling me “Thank you for giving me a time out for pushing Jack.  You made the right choice to give me a time out because that helps me not push.”  (Discipline doesn’t always work that smoothly in our house, but I have to celebrate when it does!)  We are just very very very thankful and want to be a voice of hope.  We were devastated when the dr. said all we could do for our 3 yr. old was give him prozac.  We didn’t.  And she was wrong–there is so much more out there to help!  I’m so thankful for God’s grace on this little guy.
Where do I even begin with Jack?  He is so full of life and adventure!  Every night he asks “Is tomorrow a stay-at-home day or a leaving day?”  Of course, he always wants a leaving day.  He has worn a backpack around for 3 days straight, since Miles went back to preschool.  He hasn’t really said he wants to go to preschool.  He just wants to play like he’s at school.  He has some crazy innate desire to learn.  The other day, he surprised me by bringing magnetic letters to show me how he could spell g-u-i-t-a-r. (I think he learned that from Word World–LOVE that show!)  Or we woke up the other day to him spelling Miss DeeDee (M-S D-D).  He just enjoys sounding out letters to make words–it’s crazy.  He loves music–to sing, play his little keyboard, guitar or drums.  But his favorite activity by far is wrestling with dad.  I think he eats all day long.  And if I’m occupied (like in the shower) and he doesn’t have food, he’ll just help himself.  The other day I came out from getting ready to him with a party platter full of doritoes.  He said “We’re having a chip party!”  Sounds like fun, but not at 9 Sunday morning.  Everyone who knows Jack might think most of all his temper.  It’s true.  He’s crazy–Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde.  I’m hoping it will end as suddenly as it began.  I often think, if only we can shape his will, he will conquer the world…well, he will either way, but hopefully for good ๐Ÿ™‚  This week was a breakthrough, and he held his first baby!  Usually any time we hold a baby, he’ll either cry or yell “Put that baby down!”  (I’m hoping that continues to change before July.)

Well, I think that’s long enough…plus it’s almost bedtime. 
If I get around to doing any work on the boys’ room, I’ll be sure to post pics.  Right now, it’s hard to think of tackling it when there’s enough laundry, dishes, cooking and cleaning to keep on top of!  It’ll probably be one of those nesting projects I’ll bring on when I’m ready to go into labor!  (Hopefully not.)

january 6. 2001

7 years ago tomorrow I married my best friend and soul-mate.  I can’t imagine my life without him, and I’m glad I don’t have to.  We’re going to Chicago for our anniversary.  I’m so pumped out of my mind!  We’re going to check out improv olympic for some good laughs and then the back room for some good ole Chicago blues.  But being without kids, we really can do as little or as much as we want.  We get to decide!!!  I really hope that I can soak in the night life!  I’ve been so tired this pregnancy, although I just started the 2nd trimester, so hopefully I’ll notice a change soon.  But I’ve also been fighting off a cold, so I’m doing all I can homeopathically–lemon oil on my feet, eucalyptus oil in a vaporizer, drinking elderberry syrup and eating as much garlic as I can stomach while being pregnant.  It’s amazing how powerful nature is in healing our bodies.  I’ve so loved learning how safely to treat illness rather than running to a drugstore and suppressing the symptoms, finding methods that are safe during pregnancy and for our kids..and work!! 

But this was supposed to be about our anniversary…7 years.  Wow.  It doesn’t seem like that long, and yet, I feel like we’ve known each other all our lives.  Last year, he bought me the song “I am the Luckiest” by Ben Folds (we do songs rather than cards).  I’ve been trying to come up with one so fitting this year, but I can’t.  I really feel very very very lucky and blessed.  And I love anniversaries in that there are many days he comes home, kids are needing fed and crazy, and I’m not really in the right frame of mind to say how much I appreciate and adore my husband…so I’m excited to now.  And I just love bumming around the city with him. 
Honeymoon (Paris)
In other news…I don’t know when I’ll get around to posting next, so Andy built the boys a bunkbed.  It’s amazing.  They’ve been sleeping in it for 1 week.  Together.  The 2 of them.  I’m just completely shocked there haven’t been all-out wars.  Miles is very particular about what is left in his room–every night before bed, we have to get things back in order, or he’ll call us in “Mom, there’s a piece of black fuzz on the carpet!”  No joke.  So the first time they had to share a room on vacation, he was like “Mom, you forgot Jack!”  “No honey, he’s going to sleep in here tonight.”  It never went well.  But lo and behold, a week has passed, and it’s worked!  So here’s the pics.  I want to decorate their room unique and special to the both of them, BUT Jack is so into tractors, farms, John Deere, etc…and Miles is more into Pier 1 style.  SO, I’m having a hard time meshing the 2.  Someone suggested painting wheat on the walls, in a cool monochromatic way…any other ideas?!?